I miss you and will always remember you, Oscar.

I've never cried as much as I did today. I've been fortunate to not lose anyone really close to be. I can't stop replaying different moments and memories that I have of him. He always brought a smile to my face and was always extremely happy to see me when I came home. I have no one to curl up and lay right next to me or beg to get onto my bed. After Oscar would climb onto my bed, he had a smirk on his face like he was king of the world. That alone brings me to tears.

I hope this only gets easier because I cannot do anything to get him off my mind. He was a huge part of this family and it leaves a big hole now that he's gone. I still can't help thinking what it was like for him before he passed away. I hope he wasn't in pain and it just felt like a stomach ache. He must have felt something since he went poo multiple times in the room. When did he pass away and what caused it? I wish I knew the answers but I can only fill the holes with my guesses. He died on his side (his favorite position to sleep) and his eyes were partly open. I feel bad because he could have been crying for help but everyone was asleep and when we woke up he was as stiff as a board, meaning he was probably dead for a little bit.

I know I'm writing a lot on this but he means so much to me and this is the best way for me to share my feelings and thoughts and to remember him the way he should be remembered. I didn't think that I would be so emotional, but I definitely showed that today. Feel free to write your favorite Oscar memories here if you'd like. Thanks.



RIP Oscar, you will never be forgotten.

Rest In Peace Oscar

This morning I woke up to my mom screaming that Oscar was dead. I was and still am in disbelief. How could this have happened? My mom said that he had been sleeping in her room and that she didn't want to wake him this morning because he had been up late. She went to go feed the cat and normally Oscar runs in to eat the cat food but he didn't do that this time, so she knew something was wrong. He had passed away laying on his side next to my mom's bed, but he made sure to leave his mark before he left. He went poo in multiple spots around my mom's room. (Was he saying something?)

I had work off yesterday and he had been sleeping in my bed for most of the day and I didn't see anything wrong with him. I can't help but think about everything I've ever done with him when I walk around the house or even sit in my room. It's extremely hard to think how I'm going to come home from school after a few months and there is no dog extremely excited to see and greet me. Who is going to beg for my food (even food that he didn't like)?

We lost an amazing member of our family today. He was the nicest that I've ever been around and he loved being around people. When I would go to bed, he would jump on my chair, and up onto my bed. Then he would go under the covers and lay right up against me. It was amazing.

I would always love to take off a day of work and just relax with him. We both had that lazy/relaxation type of personality to us so I think he enjoyed being around me. I'm just happy that he didn't suffer a lot (from what we can tell) and that he died as a happy dog and enjoyed his life to the fullest.



R.I.P. Oscar Gavin 6-21-2008

Why I'll never win a tournament

PokerStars Game #17971344272: Tournament #90846458, $2.00+$0.20 Hold'em No Limit - Level IX (200/400) - 2008/06/07 - 04:17:45 (ET)
Table '90846458 52' 9-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: tomdog33 (7245 in chips)
Seat 2: GREMLIN4003 (4943 in chips)
Seat 3: sharonM27 (7932 in chips)
Seat 4: oksuzi (17313 in chips)
Seat 5: NASCAR1083 (63956 in chips)
Seat 6: marko_i 77 (7430 in chips)
Seat 7: Wsox08 (8551 in chips)
Seat 8: deuceA8 (15286 in chips)
Seat 9: yvonne32 (17906 in chips)
tomdog33: posts the ante 50
GREMLIN4003: posts the ante 50
sharonM27: posts the ante 50
oksuzi: posts the ante 50
NASCAR1083: posts the ante 50
marko_i 77: posts the ante 50
Wsox08: posts the ante 50
deuceA8: posts the ante 50
yvonne32: posts the ante 50
marko_i 77: posts small blind 200
Wsox08: posts big blind 400
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Wsox08 [As Qd]
deuceA8: folds
yvonne32: folds
tomdog33: folds
GREMLIN4003: folds
sharonM27: folds
oksuzi: folds
NASCAR1083: raises 1200 to 1600
marko_i 77: folds
Wsox08: raises 6901 to 8501 and is all-in
NASCAR1083: calls 6901
*** FLOP *** [7c 9s 7d]
*** TURN *** [7c 9s 7d] [5s]
*** RIVER *** [7c 9s 7d 5s] [6d]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Wsox08: shows [As Qd] (a pair of Sevens)
NASCAR1083: shows [6h 3d] (two pair, Sevens and Sixes)
NASCAR1083 collected 17652 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 17652 | Rake 0
Board [7c 9s 7d 5s 6d]
Seat 1: tomdog33 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: GREMLIN4003 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: sharonM27 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: oksuzi folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: NASCAR1083 (button) showed [6h 3d] and won (17652) with two pair, Sevens and Sixes
Seat 6: marko_i 77 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 7: Wsox08 (big blind) showed [As Qd] and lost with a pair of Sevens
Seat 8: deuceA8 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 9: yvonne32 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Dealer: Wsox08 finished the tournament in 108th place
NASCAR1083: wow
NASCAR1083: lucky